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catching up...a few ways March 03, 2005 - 10:23 am Oh my god I can write an entry!! I am really beginning to hate that damn error page. And I swear I'm the only one who is plagued by it, as everyone else seems able to upday whenever they like!! Sorry andrew, don't mean to complain, but it is frustrating... Okay, I teurned in three more books to my list, so let's do those quickly. The Fourth Hand by John Irving Girl With Curious Hair by David Foster Wallace That said, I also read My Sister's Keeper by Jodi Picoult. It was really good. Not the best writing in the world, but the subject was great. A girl who was genetically desigend to be a perfect donor for her sister with leukemia has decided, at thirteen, that she doesn't want to do it anymore. Great ethics situation, and the characters are real. The ending left me a little cold, but overall it was a good read. Okay, so, in other news... I got tickets to see Maroon 5!! Yeah, yeah, make fun of me all you want. I think they have a great sound, and I like their whole album, which is rare for me. So I am going to see the in April!! Yay!!! To Ryuko and Bryan and others.... Yes, I was there in those days. Thank gods, too. Those were some good times. I have a lot to say on the many topics that have been broached since the startof this discussion, but I will limit myself to these five comments. 1. Women are attracted to confidence. But more importantly, Paul, they are attracted to being treated like real people. Once upon a time we were friends that had certain ideas about each other...the truth is, the person who should have been [paying attention to me at the time couldn't be bothered, But you did. We played football together, we made soup, and, most importantly, we talked. You listened. You acted like I mattered. That's what you're good at, and it works, when you do it right. 2. Bryan, do you remember Jennifer and Joe and Karen and all them? They were this big senior-philosophy-major conglomerate, and I was intimidated. I wanted to be them, And when we started hanging out, I thought I finally met someone who would get there with me. Then along came Josh. All other things aside, the three of us got each other to think. That was why we became friends. And other, less studious reasons, of course. 3. Although I often wonder why I am still friends with you, I am. I think I went into it this last time with the belief that I would no longer have to hear things I don't like from you, but they keep coming up. So I am going to briefly address them, nicely, in public, so everyone sees it is just to get it off my chest and not to start anything. Just read to the end before thinking, okay? I hated hearing all those things about Andy all the time. And I have not forgiven you for them so much as moved on. And that's okay, I think, because I don't think you have forgiven me for things I did to hurt you, but you have moved on with me. So be it. I don't like having to read bad things about Cat either. I do still love her, I always have, and I always will. However, I do know there are some truths behind your anger. I knew that a long time ago, but you didn't want to hear it from me. Again, so be it. But here's where it gets interseting. Andy left me. He didn't mean to, but he's gone nonetheless. If he were still here, we probably could not be firends. I have not spoken to Cat since her wedding, over nine months ago. I spoke to you last week. So there you go. Despite all the negativity and hatred and anger...here we are...where are they? 4. Paul, Bryan and I were all good friends for a while. Built a good background. We all fell for the same person, at some point. But here we are. It is so mind-blowing to think of where we came from sometimes. How the hell did we get here? 5. I have done a lot of thinking about things over the past few days. This is my conclusion. Life is screwed up. You can't guess what it will be like in the future because things change quickly, the universe has its own rules. People, especially, are inconstant. I am no exception. So I have been through a bunch of crap, but the truth is, I have been through it with a pretty incredible bunch of people. So rather than focus on all the people and things and whatever that have hurt me, I am going to focus on the fact that I have met enough people who are so good as to convince me to open myself up to them enough to allow myself to be hurt by them in the first place. So there you go. As for the people I have hurt on my way...I have to hope they will forgive and forget as well. Wow. I should maybe delete, or at least edit. But no. This is it. See you soon. Word Of The Day: maroon Any Music On? Maroon 5 Rating Of The Day (1-5): 4 |